Lift your head princess, if not the crown falls.

I don't remember what exactly brought it up, but I was discussing my car accident with Jake today.  Oh yes, we were talking about how low our chances of survival would be if we wrecked the Solstice.  Anyways, my accident really is a part of who I am.  This may seem sort of depressing or morbid but since it is a part of who I am,  I really wanted to write about it.

Buying impractical sports cars is in my genetics.  I have a convertible, my mom is currently sporting a 2011 lime green Chevy Camaro, my uncle has a Crossfire.  Before the Camaro, my parents had a Mustang GT, Corvette, and Saturn Sky...all within the past 5 years.  It is a hobby to sell and buy new sports cars.  

The late winter of 1993 was no different.  My mom was sporting this number:   (My mom, like me, enjoys girly colored cars). 

A couple days before my accident, my dad wrecked this car.  It was a minor accident, no one was hurt.  The car had to get taken to the shop for a few days to get fixed.  For this reason, my mom and I just happened to be driving my grandpas big, steel boat car, and it probably saved our lives.  If we would have been in the camaro we would probably be dead today.  If my dad didn't have a fender bender, I probably wouldn't have survived.  Everything happens for a reason.  

I will never forget that day.  I remember the conversation we were having before it happened to a T.  It's weird the stuff that sticks with you.  I could go through the entire story, but I'm a private person so I don't share it with everyone.  I did have plastic surgery on my head twice however to make my scar less noticeable.  

Shortly Afterwards

After 1st Surgery

After 2nd Surgery

ta da!  Barely noticeable today.  Normally it takes people knowing me a few months before they notice it, or at least work up the courage to ask about it.  I'm not afraid to talk about it if people would just ask.  

Anyways, onto more joyful things!  I've been working on the teller line a lot since I am training one of the new tellers.  I have lost 6 pounds within the last two weeks!  All I have done is totally cut out drinking soda and stopped eating out for lunch.  Plus I've been standing at work instead of sitting all day.  

Yesterday was great because I quoted The Big Lebowski and Twister all day with my male coworker friend.  Today was great because I talked Christmas and now I'm SUPER excited about it.  I love Christmas!  Halloween is cool too...but I'm definitely ready for the Christmas season.  Jake made us hot chocolate tonight and we are watching Home Alone...haha.  We went to Menards!  I love Menards around Christmas time.  I want to do white lights this year instead of colored.  I can't wait to have a kid someday and take it on the Polar Express ride.

My best friend Ashley is moving into her house soon!  It's hard to believe.  I'm off Tuesday next week and I'm going to go over there.  

I randomly decided to paint the knife block the other day and put some birds on it.  I still need to sand it down, but this is the start: 

Pumpkin time/Birthday trip

Oh where to begin!

I had my 24 birthday.  I feel rather lost...I know I sound ridiculous.  I really had a plan to have my first kid when I was 24 and I'm somehow not ready AT ALL.  I don't feel like I will be ready for a few years at least!  It is just weird to finally be at an age where I am actually old enough to start a family without people wondering why I started so young.  I know if I did have a kid, it would be my entire life.  The two things I know are:

1. I want to travel
2. I want to be a great mom

I feel like in my core it is my purpose.  That sounds cheesy and somewhat weird, but I really can't wait to be a mom someday.  It is troubling to me as to why I'm not ready.  This was the plan!  I want to be a younger mom where I have energy to play I've been married 3 years...that is enough time to have "our fun."  I don't know if it is fear, or uncertainty of the future.  I know a lot of people don't feel "ready" and it's something you just have to do.  I know if I did get pregnant I would love my child more than the world and my entire life would change for the better.  Just something doesn't feel right right now.  There is just something so wonderful about loving another person more than anyone else in the world and putting their needs above yours.  I'm want to be a HUGE part of my kids lives.  I want to be there for their sports games, and be a part of the organizations they are a part of.  I want to be able to do special things like the Polar Express, Disney World, etc.  I don't know what I can't put my finger on...because I KNOW I want this more than anything in the world.  Something just isn't right yet.


This weekend was a lot of fun.  We went down to St. Louis Friday night. Saturday we went to Dave and Busters and the Landing.  Dave and Busters is a blast!  I wish we had one around here...Jillians just isn't the same.  We played this sweet ginormous connect 4 game.

Okay...okay...onto the exciting part...pumpkin carving today.  My porch is finally fallish looking!

Black Cat!

I found this idea on Pinterest.  You just paint a piece of wood and then modge podge a picture over the top once the paint dries.  I used a picture I had a million of...but Ashley and I had our pictures professionally taken so I'm going to do some cooler ones with that. Very cool idea

Is this real love, or madness?

I have the prettiest mom!  I found this picture today from when she got married to my wonderful stepdad 7 years ago! That is my grandma.  We were incredibly close, but she lost her battle to cancer close to 6 years ago.  She taught me how to play poker when I was 5 years old and we use to gamble off pennies.  I also use to go to the UAW hall with her (she was a CAT employee) and I would play poker with all of her union buddies. I was a good little democrat haha.  I use to stand on the table and yell something about "scabs" giving them their jobs back, and then I got a half dollar from an elderly guy. I miss her every day.  My uncle John is also in the picture.  He walked my mom down the aisle that day.

I made breaded parmesan pork chops for dinner...it was delish.  Then I went for a mile run and I could possibly die now.  I'm so mad I let myself get out of shape...but I want to get back on track.  Todd went on the run too...he is also out of shape.  Poor pup!

I went out with some girls last night.

I turn 24 in 5 days!  I'm officially going to St. Louis for the weekend.  I was unable to get a hotel downtown since I booked last minute, but it's not a huge deal because we got one about 20 mins outside of town.  We are staying 2 nights, but since our friends Anthony and Kirsten are joining we only had to pay for 1 night.   It is conveniently close to Harrahs (our favorite casino down there) and Dave and Busters.  So I know we are probably going to Harrahs at some point, definitely the Landing Saturday night, hopefully Grants Farm and some breweries.  Hopefully I don't have to deal with too much annoying Cardinals talk.  I can't believe I'm not going to a Blues game!   It's a bummer because my sister, Marla, is going to be in town this weekend. I didn't know until I already had planned everything out.  She lives in Asheville NC...one of my FAVORITE places I've ever been.  Plenty to do outdoors, not too far from the ocean, a big dog community...great weather,..it's perfect!  There are a ton of cute shops and nice cafes to eat at.  That is where central Illinois is seriously lacking.  If I want a nice cafe to go eat at outside...my choice is basically Panera of Camilles.  Woopdidooooo.  Don't get me wrong, I love both of those places.  It would be nice to have a specialty cafe though.  I have a brother who lives in Lake Havasu AZ. It is the hottest city in the US.  Also a very neat place to go, but I wouldn't relocate there forever.  Why am I the only one stuck in Illinois?  I've really been trying to have an open mind about it lately however.  Central Illinois isn't THAT bad, but there are just so many better places.  I really like the east coast.  Someday, I want to live in a victorian style of cape cod style house.   That is an ultimate goal.  It is more than a goal...I WILL live in one someday!

So wish my luck on my mission to begin eating healthier and working out regularly again.  Time to sleep!

/Cry

I'm tired but Jake is moping that I haven't updated in two days.

I had an awful day at work.  So I felt I needed to spoil myself for dinner, so we went to Olive Garden. Then we came home and were really wild.  By wild, I mean we watched the VP debates.  I have strong political views, but as I am a private person, I don't like sharing them often.  People take opinions too personally and I do not like fighting with my friends.  If people could carry on a normal conversation  I would be all for it.  But it is almost like people get hateful about it.  It's not worth it to me.

I really want to get more involved with the United Way.  I'm considering joining Generation United.  I think I might go to a haunted house tomorrow.  I have nothing interesting to say!  Is this good enough?

Today after work Heather and I stood around and did "It's Pat" impressions. I love her! I think there were also some "Very Nice" Borat impressions.

She is going as "It's Pat" to her Halloween party.  It was just suppose to be a normal Halloween party, but it kind of turned into an SNL themed one.  I'm going as Sally O'Malley!

Yes...I will be doing my hair like that!  I can't wait to get pictures.  I've been practicing doing my high kicks and says "I'M FIFTY!! I LIKE TO KICK, STRETCH, AND KICK!"

Actually, I'm going to go try on my costume now for Jake since he hasn't seen it yet.  Then I have to do my impression to see what he thinks.  I got my costume the other day for 5 bucks!

Alright...until next time....

Christmas Frame!

I started making my chalkboard frame last night for my friend who wanted me to make her some.  I painted it red...and the color didn't turn out how I was wanting. I decided to keep it for myself (when I make something for someone else, I want it to be perfect!)

Anyways...the red color turned out SO red that I decided to convert it to a Christmas countdown calendar...and I LOVE it!

I went to Hobby Lobby and bought some green sequins  a ribbon to make a bow out of, and some green pom poms.

Sit on a table...

...Or hang on the wall

This is what I started with.

This is the point where I thought....wow that is really, REALLY, red....oops.

Yay! 

Also..I used THIS hair tutorial today to curl my hair...and I HIGHLY suggest it. It takes too long to do it every single day, but I plan on using it many many more times.

Weekend

I went to a real college homecoming this weekend.  Glad I have finally got to have the experience.  It was a lot of fun!  Although I'm not sure it is something I'd want to do all the time.  Maybe I should give some background.

I didn't go to a four year school after high school.  I came very close to going to WIU, but my parents agreed to pay for my ICC if I went there for two years first.  I have also been working almost full time since a week or two after my 16th birthday.  I didn't know what I wanted to do, I still don't really, so I did not want to waste my money at a four year school...good thing to!  Because I changed my major times.  It went from:

1. Secondary Education (I wanted to teach high school math)
2. Civil Engineering
3. Mass Communications
4. Public Relations
5. Business Administration..and still is today!

I am very interested in business...simply because it would be a dream come true to own my own business someday.  There is something about entrepreneurship that is extremely appealing to me!  I love doing hair and makeup, so I have even though about going to cosmetology school  and then eventually opening my own salon.  I don't think my mom would support that decision.  She was a hair dresser until I was in 3rd grade and it was hard since she didn't get health insurance.  Anyways..off topic, wow!

The college homecoming experience was a lot of fun.  I went with one of my best friends, Rebecca and some other people. Jake was going out of town with his brother. Fun night...but I wouldn't go back in time and change the way I did things, and I wouldn't give up my cozy bed.  Bed never felt as good as it did this morning when I got home.  Here are some pictures from my fun night:

No good pictures unfortunately!  Still fun though.  

I started making my photoframes today for my friend from work.  I can't wait to have a day off tomorrow!  I have a doctors appointment, then I plan on going to Jeffrey Alans (kind of like a Hobby Lobby), and I plan on having Smoothie King for lunch.  I have to go cancel my gym membership that I have in Peoria.  

I'm sad because the NHL canceled all the hockey games up until October 24th, so I can't go to a game for my birthday now. Booo!  So now I don't know what to do for my birthday weekend.  

Happy Fall Bikerides. :]

Perfect hot tub night

I'm sitting in the car outside Wal-Mart because Jake needs turkey meat...and I refuse to walk anywhere else in these heals I wore today! He already made me go to Buffalo Wild Wings in them. Tonight is chilly and raining, so we are going to Ashley's to get in the hot tub after this. Which reminds me...Hunter was born tonight! Ashley's sister Christina and Matt finally had their first baby.  In October, the best month of the year! So now his mom, grandma,  Aunt Chase, and Hunter have birthdays together. Hunter looks identical to dad...I can't get over it! Uncanny!  I finally took my shoes off. My feet don't smell. The other day my socks were BAD! So naturally I took them in the car with Jake when we went to Walgreens because he was disgusted. I stuck them in his lap and he couldn't figure out what the smell was. Then he finally figured it out and was so disgusted he stuck them out the window and rolled it up. So my socks were airing out for awhile. Its not my feet....its the shoes! I swear! We are listening to the band Of Monsters and Men. I hope we see The Perks of Being a Wallflower tomorrow! I love that book so much. Ok..I'll be posting my table soon. Peace!